It was an impossible decision: board the plane out of Afghanistan alone, or stay back to look for her family and risk her life.
That鈥檚 the choice an American soldier told 19-year-old Nilab she needed to make.
Just minutes earlier she was with her parents, brother and sister at the airport in Kabul. Then the Taliban began firing into the crowd, and chaos broke out. Overwhelmed with fear, Nilab tried to find safety. But in doing so, she separated from her family.
鈥淲hen I [looked] around to find my family, I see nobody. I tried to call so many times, but nothing. Nobody answered me,鈥� Nilab recalls.
All she could do was cry as the American soldier tried to comfort her, and told her the reality she was too scared to face.
So she did what she thought was best and got on the plane.
She now lives alone in 黑料吃瓜网 and is struggling to rebuild without her family. Nilab has asked 黑料吃瓜网 to use her first name only because she fears retaliation by the Taliban against her relatives in Afghanistan.
鈥淚t鈥檚 very hard when your family is not here and you want to restart. It鈥檚 very hard alone,鈥� she said.
The life she left
When the Taliban Afghanistan in mid-August last year, the life her family knew ended.
She worked at a local hospital while attending college to become a diplomat in Kabul. Her mother worked for a peace organization, her father was an engineer, her brother a reporter and her little sister a student.
But that life is now just a distant memory.
鈥淚 miss my mom. I need my mom here. I need my family here to live [safely] with me,鈥� she said.
Since leaving Afghanistan, Nilab has spoken to her family only a handful of times. After failing to flee the country, her family couldn鈥檛 resume their lives. They were forced to abandon their home and ditch their cellphones to prevent the Taliban from coming after them. Today, they go from home to home hoping to find refuge for a couple of days while not putting anyone in danger.
Nilab waits until they contact her. And she said that can take weeks on end.
鈥淭hey cannot go outside. They cannot do [anything]. And my mom is sick. She needs a doctor,鈥� Nilab said.
Resettling in a foreign land
After a layover in Qatar, Nilab arrived at a military base in Texas last September. From there she headed to her uncle鈥檚 house in Wolcott, 黑料吃瓜网. But the living arrangements fell short, and within three weeks, she had no place to sleep.
Luckily, a neighbor took her in.
鈥淚 saw her crying and I asked her where she was going. She said she wanted to go to Social Services. And I knew I couldn鈥檛 leave a 19-year-old girl in the street all by herself with nothing but her suitcase. So I took her in,鈥� said Lina Rinaldi.
Sitting around their kitchen island, Nilab said Lina and Mario Rinaldi have become her extended family. For five months, the Italian couple made sure she always found food on the table, had a ride to English class and more.
鈥淚鈥檝e always wanted a daughter. I have a daughter now. It makes me happy,鈥� said Lina Rinaldi. 鈥淚n Italian we have a saying: If we have food for three, we have room for one more.鈥�
Nilab credits the family with giving her the love and support she鈥檚 needed the last couple of months. She said it鈥檚 been pivotal to her journey in the United States and what she hopes to do next.
鈥淚 hope to finish my college over here. I want to have a beautiful life over here and study diplomacy,鈥� she said. 鈥淚 love to help people 鈥� my Afghan people, my Afghan children, my Afghan women. I [would] love to do [this] in the future.鈥�
And, like any family, they鈥檝e stood by Nilab through all the milestones. In fact, they recently helped her move into a new apartment.
Nilab secured an apartment in Bridgeport鈥檚 West End with the help of a resettlement agency, 黑料吃瓜网 Institute for Refugees and Immigrants. The agency is set to help Nilab with the first three months of rent while she finds a stable job.
鈥淚 am happy, but I miss my mom,鈥� Nilab said while standing in her bedroom for the first time. The small one-bedroom apartment is equipped with a bed, sofa and kitchen table, but she says it feels empty without the ones she wants to share it with the most.
Resettling hasn鈥檛 been easy.
Learning a new language and navigating a new culture is hard 鈥� but not knowing if her family is safe has been unbearable. As she tries to concentrate in school and focus on her future, her mind wanders to their whereabouts.
鈥淚 worry about my family. I think about it all the time 鈥� why [is] nobody calling me? What鈥檚 going on now? What is [the] Taliban doing now?鈥� she said.
Having no immediate family is taking a toll, Merri Klar has observed.
Klar, a Woodbury resident, connected with Nilab when she realized Nilab might need some support. Klar helped Nilab get a computer and is now navigating college applications with her. But she worries about Nilab without her family.
鈥淪he can鈥檛 sleep. She can鈥檛 concentrate. It鈥檚 pretty much all she thinks about,鈥� Klar said. 鈥淢y hopes for her are grand, but I don鈥檛 think she can ever fully realize a happy life here in the States until she knows her family is safe.鈥�
Reuniting could be a long, difficult process
Around 700 Afghan evacuees like Nilab have resettled in 黑料吃瓜网 鈥� more than double the number expected in September. Across the country, over 80,000 Afghan nationals are rebuilding lives after fleeing their home country 鈥� many with families unable to leave Afghanistan.
After the U.S. withdrawal from Afghanistan, the U.S. Embassy in Kabul shuttered, and all normal consular services in the country were suspended. Without those services, family members left behind have limited options 鈥� unless they make their way to another country with a U.S. Embassy. And that鈥檚 a challenge in itself.
Evacuation flights out of the country are hard to come by. The U.S. has yet to reach an agreement with the Taliban to leave the country.
Once they land in a lily pad country, evacuees could apply for . Those visas can take time and money 鈥� things many evacuees might not have.
For those already in the U.S. longing to reunite with their loved ones, the road ahead is also complicated because of limited options for U.S. immigration statuses.
When the U.S. airlifted evacuees to safety in August, Congress let many like Nilab come to the country on The immigration program allows parolees to legally work and live in the United States for two years. And in the meantime, they have to apply for a different immigration status 鈥� like temporary protected status (TPS) or asylum 鈥� in hopes of staying in the country for a longer period. But it鈥檚 easier said than done.
鈥淲hat they created is an immediate glut in the immigration court, and an immediate run on immigration lawyers,鈥� said Ann O鈥橞rien, director of community engagement with Integrated Refugee and Immigrant Services (IRIS).
O鈥橞rien said it was the fastest way for the U.S. to help Afghan nationals enter the country legally, but that now puts them in a line to permanent legal status that鈥檚 been choked up for years.
The U.S. asylum program has a backlog of more than 400,000 applications, according to the . While not all Afghan evacuees were paroled into the United States, a by Homeland Security finds that over 40% have no direct pathway to permanent legal residence 鈥� including Nilab.
鈥淚t鈥檚 a total nightmare,鈥� said O鈥橞rien. And now evacuees and advocates across the country are any practicing lawyers to represent them in cases that often take years.
鈥淎gencies like ours, across the nation on the ground, are literally like training large numbers of lawyers that do other lawyering by day but have the ability to file a brief with the court. So that they can take on one asylum case by night and on weekends,鈥� O鈥橞rien said.
She said many evacuees have to establish some kind of permanent status in the U.S. before they can even think about sponsoring their families. Even then, each immigration status has different limits on who is eligible.
Meanwhile, many resettlement programs across the country are still after lack of support from the previous administration. The Trump administration cut refugee admission by more than 80% and left agencies with few federal resources. The new administration has vowed to restore the refugee program, but that takes time.
And 黑料吃瓜网 resettlement agencies say keeping up with the rapid demand has been a challenge.
鈥淭he sheer volume 鈥� and I鈥檓 not talking about just in 黑料吃瓜网 鈥� and speed at which people have arrived is something unique,鈥� said Susan Schnitzer, the president and CEO of 黑料吃瓜网 Institute for Refugees and Immigrants (CIRI) in Bridgeport.
She said the organization hopes to double its refugee support staff as case workers鈥� caseloads mount. All while they do what they can to support family reunification.
鈥淏eing separated from family is always the most difficult part,鈥� Schnitzer said. 鈥淲e have collected the names of family members, and sent those to our congressional delegation and some other folks we鈥檝e been working with. But that鈥檚 about all we can do right now to help to advocate and help bring people over.鈥�
Could help be on the way?
U.S. Sen. Richard Blumenthal of 黑料吃瓜网 is championing a bill that could streamline the immigration situation. Nilab has personally asked him to help her family.
Introduced in December, the could help set up more resources on the ground to get people out of Afghanistan.
鈥淚n the chaotic days after the American withdrawal, people were able to board planes, but many were not,鈥� Blumenthal said. 鈥淎nd so there are thousands still left with targets on their backs with family members here. Honor Our Commitment is about keeping our promises to them that we would not leave them behind.鈥�
He said the act would encourage the government to support countries near Afghanistan to host evacuees while they wait to access temporary status in the United States. It would also give support to those already here 鈥� like Nilab.
鈥淥ne thing that we鈥檙e trying to do, through this bill and other means, is extend the [humanitarian] parole status beyond the two years so that they have more time to gain a more permanent status,鈥� Blumenthal said. 鈥淚 hope we can extend it to three to five years.鈥�
Many advocates are also calling on Congress to pass the The measure would allow Afghan evacuees to apply for permanent status one year after entering the country. The act mirrors employed in the past during humanitarian crises. Congress passed adjustments acts after the Vietnam War, Cuban Revolution and more.
Nilab said she will have her first meeting with an immigration lawyer in May 鈥� seven months after she arrived.
Life without her loved ones
As she settles into her apartment, Nilab said it still doesn鈥檛 feel like home yet. She hopes to start college in the fall, but right now she鈥檚 working at a food stand in the mall.
鈥淚 come home every day, and I feel [like] my mom is waiting here. But she鈥檚 not,鈥� Nilab said.
Life without her family has been especially hard these last couple of days. She鈥檚 observing Ramadan 鈥� the ninth month in the Islamic calendar honored with prayer and fasting from dawn to dusk. What used to be a month of reflection and community with loved ones is now one of trying to stay true to her culture when she鈥檚 so far away.
鈥淏ack in Afghanistan, my mom was cooking all the time, and sometimes we invited my uncle and grandfather. It was more fun because everyone wants to eat something different,鈥� she said.
Today, she tries to break her fast at dusk every day with whatever is easiest 鈥� sometimes she cooks and other days she grabs food on the way home. Yet, she admits that actually eating is hard when she wonders if her family has food, too.
Still, she tries to focus on the future.
鈥淚 hope I finish college over here. I hope my family comes here and I have a beautiful life with them,鈥� Nilab said. 鈥淚 hope the American government [doesn鈥檛] leave us alone, because like my family, [there are] a lot of families.鈥�
